'From a place of relative mental stability, had I gotten help when I needed it sooner, I likely would never have started having panic attacks'.

Lucie's Story

My name is Lucie. I’m the Station Manager for Loughborough Campus Radio. I have a cat, two dogs, and a hamster. Dw i’n siarad Cymraeg. I’ve been diagnosed with mixed major anxiety and depressive disorder. Oh, and I’m an only child.


These are the things that tend to surprise people when I reveal them. I know, it’s a lot of pets. You didn’t come here to read about my dogs, so that’s a story for another blog.


I’ve had an anxiety disorder in one form or another for as long as I can remember. One of my earlier memories is sitting in my primary school class, reduced to tears because I couldn’t solve a maths problem designed for kids three years older than me.

It’s safe to say my anxiety is quite firmly rooted in academics. Those who know me now may doubt it, but I was actually a part of the More Able and Talented scheme in school and college. I was one of the students sent to conferences and spelling bees, encouraged to study STEM subjects and apply to Russell Group Universities (which are completely overrated by the way, but again, a story for another blog).

I can tell you a story from just a few months ago to tell you why I would have never fit in on a STEM course.