Your feelings and actions will never make you any less worthy of love and respect.
TW: eating disorders
You wouldn’t look at me and think eating disorder. And if I’m being honest, that’s often one of the worst things about mental illness. I look fine - even when I feel anything but. I have suffered from anxiety, depression and an eating disorder since I was a pre-teen, and yet for many years only a handful of people knew. A common misconception about eating disorders is that there are two: anorexia and bulimia. However, there are actually many more diagnoses beside these. I personally fall into the OSFED category- ‘other specified feeding or eating disorder’. This isn’t a less serious diagnosis; it just means that my illness doesn’t fit the very specific criteria for a diagnosis such as anorexia or binge eating disorder. OSFED is just as physically and mentally devastating as any other disorder.
For me, OSFED principally means that I restrict my food intake and engage in purging behaviours. However, people with OSFED can experience any combination of the symptoms of anorexia, bulimia and binge eating disorder - meaning that it presents differently in every sufferer. I’d been doing really well in recovery throughout my late teenage years and largely considered my ED to be a thing of the past.