'What made me struggle the most was to accept that what I was going through was a “valuable” excuse to seek for help'
'It is so vital we raise awareness of mental health, especially as somebody who knows how it feels to not want to talk about how they’re feeling'.
'Looking back now, from a place of relative mental stability, had I gotten help when I needed it sooner, I likely would never have started having panic attacks'
'It's not meant to sound like a cliché, but those counselling appointments were what I looked forward to every week'.
it is not a weakness to ask for help and that there are ways, like volunteering, to aid in your recovery.
It is OK to be scared about not being well. I was utterly terrified. But know it can, and it will get better. You have more people around you who care about you than you realise.
'The hardest thing I have ever had to do was to choose to live when I wanted to die, and I have been choosing to live ever since, no matter how much I may have wanted the opposite'.
Often it’s those who appear to have the happiest life, or those who get involved the most, that actually end up being the ones who are hurting on the inside.
I have confidence in my abilities in what I do, hence why I am posting this. Because despite everyone telling me Anushka is not right, this is right, I was never wrong. This is my superpower.
All in all, I really hope that this story, despite being sad, has helped or reassured you in some way. But if you take anything from this, please talk to someone.