It is OK to be scared about not being well. I was utterly terrified. But know it can, and it will get better. You have more people around you who care about you than you realise.
'The hardest thing I have ever had to do was to choose to live when I wanted to die, and I have been choosing to live ever since, no matter how much I may have wanted the opposite'.
I have confidence in my abilities in what I do, hence why I am posting this. Because despite everyone telling me Anushka is not right, this is right, I was never wrong. This is my superpower.
All in all, I really hope that this story, despite being sad, has helped or reassured you in some way. But if you take anything from this, please talk to someone.